This is my website. My name is Ian Gormlie and I was diagnosed with incurable stage 4 prostate cancer in March 2016.
When I was first diagnosed I was devastated and the first thing I did was to go onto the internet to try to find some glimmer of hope. At first it was difficult. I mostly found stories that focused on extending life expectancy, preparing for death and managing quality of life for the time that remained. The problem was that no one was telling me how much time remained. All I was told was that my cancer was incurable but treatable which to me seemed to be a contradiction in terms.
Faced with an uncertain future I decided to research advanced prostate cancer as much as I could. The problem was that most of what I found was about prevention of prostate cancer or treatment of early stage, localised prostate cancer. When it came to advanced prostate cancer the language always became more ominous, more focused on suffering, death and dying with no clarification on whether the advice for early stage prostate cancer was relevant for later stage.
This led me to start this website. I wanted to keep a diary of everything I was experiencing and if I found a way to cure myself I wanted it to be out in the public domain where other men with advanced prostate cancer could find some hope without dredging through pages and pages of dismal reading that would regularly make their blood run cold and sap their sense of hope.
I quickly learned that conventional medical websites are often depressing and frightening reading so I started to avoid them. They give little useful advice and fail to give details of much of the peer reviewed science on the role of diet and lifestyle in managing this condition.
The lack of proper advice from my doctors, and their drug/surgery bias became more apparent the more I read. Based on the scientific research I was uncovering (by actual scientists and not a bunch of new age types) my doctors should have been advising me to reduce the animal protein in my diet, from things like red meat, cheese, eggs and milk. They should have been advising me to cut out sugar, alcohol and processed foods and instead I should be consuming more fresh fruit and veg.
This was extremely essential advice and it seemed that the people who were supposed to be keeping me alive weren’t sharing incredibly important information that, as medical professionals, they should have been aware of. In fact when asking one doctor about the role of diet he very politely brushed off the volumes of research that had been done on this subject.
I didn’t completely lose confidence in my doctors but I decided to take everything they said with a pinch of cynicism and combine what I was learning with the best of their knowledge – receiving chemotherapy and androgen deprivation therapy while supplementing these with dietary and lifestyle changes.
At the time of writing this page I am just at the beginning of this journey and I don’t know if this illness will kill me, or when, but I am recording all of this on the chance that I surprised everyone, including myself, and prove my doctors wrong.